Lately there have been some anxious thoughts and feelings about having another baby... With Evelyn keeping me so busy now, how am I going to be able to tend to her needs AND a newborn baby's needs? And what about my needs? Am I going to be able to lay around and soak up the newborn stage like I did with Evelyn or are we just going to be in full on survival mode? And what about maintaining a clean house?
Monday morning (after Thanksgiving) I was slow to get going and experiencing mild nausea. Not unusual symptoms for a pregnant gal. I kept trying to shake it off as I normally would but it only got worse. Jay offered to work from home, which I really hated to ask of him since he had already recently taken time off to travel to California. He assured me it wouldn't be a problem, and thank goodness because less than an hour later the vomiting began... I was downstairs snuggling sweet Evelyn on the couch when suddenly I raced to the bathroom and she followed asking in her precious raspy little voice, "You you k?" It was heartbreaking as well as heartwarming to see her so concerned. As if throwing up isn't bad enough I learned that throwing up while in your last trimester of pregnancy is kind of hellish. Whatever it was, a nasty stomach bug or food poising, it was violent and horrible. Although I couldn't help but feel like the timing of getting sick was no coincidence. While being out of commission for a full day I was so touched with the way Jay took on Evelyn. The two of them have a solid relationship already and it wasn't at all that I didn't trust Jay to take care of her. Seeing it in action- not only the way he took care of her needs but also the way he tended to me and took over on grocery shopping and cooking, it was exactly the reassurance I needed. Jay and I make a good team and when baby boy comes and shakes things up I'm confident that not only are we going to survive but we're going to rock it.
Monday morning (after Thanksgiving) I was slow to get going and experiencing mild nausea. Not unusual symptoms for a pregnant gal. I kept trying to shake it off as I normally would but it only got worse. Jay offered to work from home, which I really hated to ask of him since he had already recently taken time off to travel to California. He assured me it wouldn't be a problem, and thank goodness because less than an hour later the vomiting began... I was downstairs snuggling sweet Evelyn on the couch when suddenly I raced to the bathroom and she followed asking in her precious raspy little voice, "You you k?" It was heartbreaking as well as heartwarming to see her so concerned. As if throwing up isn't bad enough I learned that throwing up while in your last trimester of pregnancy is kind of hellish. Whatever it was, a nasty stomach bug or food poising, it was violent and horrible. Although I couldn't help but feel like the timing of getting sick was no coincidence. While being out of commission for a full day I was so touched with the way Jay took on Evelyn. The two of them have a solid relationship already and it wasn't at all that I didn't trust Jay to take care of her. Seeing it in action- not only the way he took care of her needs but also the way he tended to me and took over on grocery shopping and cooking, it was exactly the reassurance I needed. Jay and I make a good team and when baby boy comes and shakes things up I'm confident that not only are we going to survive but we're going to rock it.
My anxieties about having this baby come and go and honestly a lot of it is based on how Evelyn is sleeping. Lately she has been waking up a lot in the night and the thought of potentially having to get up with TWO babies in the night stresses me out big time. As this pregnancy progresses I'm finding myself frequently in need of extra hands, such as when it comes to getting up with Evelyn. It can be difficult for me to ask for and accept extra help from Jay who already works so hard for our family. But he is always so quick to step up, particularly over this past month.
Two babies... I'm anticipating some rough days ahead with some really wonderful and fulfilling ones as well. And I'm pretty darn grateful I get to experience it all with this guy by my side.
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